I see Him

If you follow me on Social media, you know that I have begun working with a Life Coach. Let me just say, my experience with her thus far has been enlightening, provoking, and at times hella scary. I NEVER expected to have this type of experience nor bound with her on this level. I am a people person. I watch and study people, they fascinate me, they confuse me, they anger me, and most importantly they amaze me. People are magical! When I sit back and think about the world around me and all the wonderful things that are apart of this planet that I inhabit, my knees quiver in awe.  To know that human hands created the house that I was raised in, the place that is my sacred home, is humbling. To hear Robin Roberts talk about her health challenges and hearing her utter a simple sentence, changed my life. To see the many artistic creations of this world and to know that they came from the mind of another person, is marvelously mysterious. It is things like these and so much more that feeds my love of mankind. However, when I truly look into my reverent adoration of people what I sincerely see is a pure and humbling glimpse of a loving and multi-dimensional God.

Coach Kerri's Universe

When I decided to work with my Life Coach, my biggest fear was that she was so different from me, so I thought. As a Christian, I know God, Jesus, and the Holy Spirit, the Trinity. I have never known anything else. I would watch Coach on Facebook via posts and she would use words like, universe, and energy, it kinda freaked me out. Universe and energy, what the heck is she talking about? Well from day one, she explained, it is the same thing. If God is all and in all, then isn't He energy, nature, mankind, etc. She opened my eyes to something I had yet to completely grasped before, God is everything and everything(minus the bad stuff humans find themselves doing) is God. We are only separated when we allow labels to divide us. In that moment I saw God's desire to take me higher and deeper in my relationship with Him being manifested through Coach Kerri. 

Robin's Something

Oh Robin Roberts, how I adore thee. To me this lady is miraculous ball of strength, courage, determination, and contagious positivity. To come through all that she has and to not only be still standing but to be standing so profoundly is to me, enormously inspirational. This lady is TRULY my real life super hero. Recently, I have been reading her latest book, Everybody's Got Something, and throughout this entire book she talks about God in one way or another. Whether she is talking about her greatest challenge, her wonderful nurses, her family, or fans; the thread that filters through all of her recounts is faith. She talks about how her faith, in her darkest moments, whether it was via a word spoken, a whispered prayer, or serene silence, it was her faith that kept her. Hmm, faith, doesn't faith connect us to God? So, while I adore me some Robin, if it was not for God, there would be no Robin. Yet again, God has shown Himself to me by manifesting through a human's struggle and triumph.

The Arts

There is so much artistic beauty in this world, from the Mona Lisa to the colorful bird that lands on the tree branch. Art is everywhere. When I look in the mirror and see my Asian eyes peaking through my African American skin, that is art. When I snap pictures of Dee's latest cake creation, that is art. When I am driving home from GA to MI and I see the mountains, that is art. When I read words so eloquently placed together make me weep, that is art. The common entity among all of these creative mediums is God.

But God

While I am utterly enamored with mankind, more than the human that I see, it is the God in them that I recognize. Coach Kerri is great and is a vital part of my life and journey BUT it is God who predestined to join our lives together in this exact moment. Robin Roberts is astonishing BUT it is God who she credits for everything. The wonders of this world are beautiful to behold BUT it is God who gave the inventors the minds to create and the skills to produce. While I wouldn't want to live in a world without all the things that I have discussed and so much more, I now have a deeper love and passion for God. How can I not worship a creator who loves me enough to allow me to experience so many extraordinarily breathtaking blessings in a lifetime.

Maybe if more people could truly see and appreciate humans for what and who they are, as God and His creations walking among us, the atmosphere of this world would change.

Live My Truth, What The Hell Is That?

My bathroom is where I go to retreat, it is my place of peace and calm. It is in my bathroom where I hear God the most.  Today as I went to my bathroom to calm the pain, I had no plans to talk to God about anything particular, honestly, the only thing on my mind was this pain and how the steaming hot water takes my mind off of this relentless enemy. As I stood in my shower, thoughts began to flow, nothing profound, just thoughts. As most people do, I began to sang a song, I don't even remember what it was and then I hear this, What is your truth? Imagine me standing there, my pelvic region is throbbing because I am standing up and God wants to get all deep and what not, REALLY GOD, REALLY!

Well, I couldn't ignore it, so I asked myself, "What is your truth?" I did not have an answer, that shook me up, I don't exactly know MY truth. How is it that I have reached the fabulous age of 40 and I am just now pondering the questions that lead to the discovery of my personal truth? Man, who knew a therapeutic shower could spark such an awakening! I grew up in a loving, nurturing, high strung home, with my grandma as our Queen, no seriously, they called her Queen. Oh my grandma, my Mama Birda, there is no other human like her, she was the epitome of a mother's love and devotion. To us, she was the entire package, she was extremely wise, wildly gifted, a lover of people, and our Queen. She not only loved us, she loved EVERYBODY but I digress. My grandma was a dominating, controlling, aggressive 4ft 8inch ball of tenacity. Our house ran on one golden principle, her way or no way. Now, her way wasn't necessarily wrong, she produced teachers, doctors, paralegals, manager, soldiers, and so on. Yet, her way didn't allow much room for self discovery. At the forefront of everything we did was Religion, if you wanted to live, you were gonna love God wholeheartedly and there is absolutely nothing wrong with that. Jesus is my homie and I owe a lot of that to her. In addition to church, we lived by these unspoken rules, it was an innate knowing, you knew what to do and you knew what not to do. Because of this, I never thought about all the things that I did not know. My childhood was so awesome(laced with a few bumps) that I didn't have a need or desire to know anything different and such a desire was never encouraged. We were living good and eating swell in our home, what else was there to know. My needs and wants(I was ridiculously spoiled) were met to the tenth power and I was loved, obsessively, life was grand on the Boulevard!

So, back to the question at hand, What is my truth? While I can't completely answer that question, I do hold this to be a truth of mine, I am free to discover me. Whomever she is, whatever she shall be, as long as she is honorable, has integrity, is an asset to humanity, and lives a life of service, I am free to let her become and thrive. I AM FREE TO DISCOVER ME!!

It Began With A Coach....

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In the land of Social Media, Wednesday is a day to shout out your Woman Crush, a day for guys to get a pass to flirt and straight girls to low key flirt with the ones that they have been having fleeting thoughts about. For me, while I have done several shout outs to a few celebrity crushes, it is a day to acknowledge women who have had a positive and lasting impact on my life, whether they are a celebrity or not.  Fortunately, I have been blessed to have many amazing women in my life, from my grandma, mom, to Robin Roberts, they are all gifts. This Wednesday, my mind automatically went to someone who has only recently become apart of my life, my Life Coach.

Many years ago, through a post on Facebook, I became aware of her and started following her page. I was intrigued, there was something distinctly different about her, she was motivating, positive, and encouraging but it was something else. Me being me, I blew it off as just being in awe, powerfully positive people have always fascinated me. I am amazed by people who can get to that intrinsic state of wellness,calm,and balance, remaining there, no matter what. To me, these people are like superheroes, they face the same human issues that we do, yet they see it in a different light. I wanted that, hell I obsessively craved it. I remember reading books by Susan L. Taylor(dating myself) and thinking, my God this woman is awesome! To read all that she faced and for her to come out of it as well as she did, was beyond my limited comprehension at the time.

Fast Forward to current day, as I said, I have been watching and following my Life Coach for a few years now, so when the opportunity came for me to work with her, I jumped on it. While I freaked the hell out after I initiated contact with her and told her that I wanted to do a few programs (Indoctrination is powerful), I swallowed that fear(with A LOT of coaching which I hadn't paid for at the point of panic), secured my spot, and  forged ahead with my plans. Since beginning to work with her,(it has only been a few weeks) my life has began to change! I realize that I have a long way to go on my journey with her but I'm facing things that I had buried, challenging them, and destroying their effects on me. My business is developing, my outlook is changing, and I am more excited about my future than before, trust me that's a lot, I am a pretty eager gal!

Some may say, what's the big deal, you can motivate yourself or you are paying her to invest in you? I would argue both of those opinions. Yes, I pay for her services but I also pay my doctors for their services. What I get with her is insight, an objective and direct voice of reason, correction, encouragement, and accountability. She doesn't hold my hand in the sense of pacifying my fears or doubts, she tolerates absolutely no negativity, she doesn't tell me that I am wonderful all the time, and when I am out of pocket and she sees it, I get a nice little message/email. If you don't believe that a life coach is something you should invest in, just keep watching me. When you see my face on the book shelves, my organization (Periods Should NOT Be Painful) changing the lives of women worldwide, my magazine flooding the media world, my blog getting worldwide recognition, and my up and coming Nail Polish line making money and funding medical care for women with Reproductive related illnesses, know that my success is a result of me deciding that I needed some help and positive reinforcement to reach my fullest potential.